Hello

      How is everyone? I personally am doing fine, or what I call the basic plateau of life. The order of events from birth to now have been in a perfect plateau state and now I am at the top. It took all of the pain and all of the burden to reach this point. This is the standstill in my life. I no longer feel the troubles and the stress from all the events prior. Personally I like this new feeling, it gives me a sense of stability. As to how far the straight edge of my plateau will go, I have no clue. I've always been one to think about the now and what not. I find it difficult when the future is within reach... Its almost like reaching for the surface of the water when under its mass. You feel so close and as your chest tightens, the distance between you and the surface seems to very slowly enclose. You start to feel very close,  almost to the point where you can slow your efforts due to the close proximity of the salvation. This is how I feel and have felt my entire life. I always feel like its all almost over, that it is almost done to the point where I can prepare for the calm and serene lifestyle. No matter how close you get, you're still not entirely there. A man once told me that its not about the destination, but about the journey. This really spoke to me because i've always thought I was aiming twards the end of all this. I now realize that I should start to savor or enjoy the journey to the happiness. Its what I will try to do for now on.


       So in other news, I have been steadily studying the teenage psyche. I've learned many things about the youth and one is helping me allot. So when teens say they want/can do things they arent allowed to do, they start to get very determined to do so. This is a bad thing and a good thing because with the right motive, they can achieve many things. Let me give you a common example in todays world. So smoking is a large issue and many kids do it just to be cool. So when a kid cant muster the courage to do so, he will simply tell people that he smokes. Lets say his reason is that he doesnt know any stoners and he doesnt have access to weed. Once a kid asks him to smoke, he is very determined to start. Now let me show you how this relates to my life. My girlfriend and I havent been alone all summer, its been a montage of her mother, her, and I prancing around town. I am ok with this because I think her mom secretly knows we are dating but is just in some form of denial. Anyway, we had just recently decided to go out with a few of our friends to this Pizza Place and it would just be us and our friends. Now all summer we have been exchanging remarks about how if her mother wasnt there, I would hold her in a certain way, etc. But never had we actually gotten to that point. So once we were alone it caused her to basically attack me with love. I had my doubts about us getting any closer than we were but I was wrong. I would dream of moments where she would hug me and just stay, arms in arms with me. This actually happened now. I am really happy about that.


     Thats all ill write today. School starts tomorrow so I am trying to prepare what supplies I do have in hopes I can excell this year. Due to the coming school year, the amount of posts may decrease as I immerse myself in school work. If so I please ask you frequent readers to continue reading. I will post from time to time, but it will just be at a slower rate. Thank you all for being there for me this summer, while I had no one else to go to. Thank you for reading and look forward to my complaints about school hahaha... Thank you.