Hello,
     Havent written in awhile. School is almost out. Im not sure what to do. I still need to attend 2 summer school programs. and i will probably get switched to continuation school next year. Every day i tell myself. If i could start again, a million miles away... I would keep myself and i would find a way. I honestly would give up everything i have just to relive my life with the knowledge i have now. So this blo is going to be short, or i might expand it later.

            Noticed i had 10 pageviews. Please talk to me guys, its hard to keep doing this when no one talks back. Its like my life. I just talk into space and hope for reply, when in reality i get nothing. I do so much for everyone and all i get is crap. If you believe in God and all that then i think he is angry with me. I think he is mad that i found out the legitimacy of his actions. I dont really. Has anyone ever had those moments when you just think, Where did i go wrong? I was all set up for success but now i dont think i have a future. Death scares me and i cant think of anything else. I wish i wasnt this smart, People say ignorance is bliss and at this point i think it is. Given the chance to know what truth really is would you do it? Or would you be afraid of what you would see. I didnt get a choice, i was born this way and at some moments its great, whereas other moments i wish for nothing but relief from the truth, I just want to be happy. Dont we all? I would give my whole life in its entirety just for a virtual reality where i can live in happiness. So dear readers, i guess i am done with this for now. Though the feeling is not mutual, i love you guys/girls.
                            -Rated[R]